This February I want to challenge myself.
February is all about love. Think Valentine’s Day: Chocolates, cards, sweets, Kdramas and the like.
It just so happens (lucky me!) I’m a part of a Facebook group (a heavily BTS biased group, but embraces multifandom too) that does various events for camaraderie. This time, they’re having a Valentine’s Day edition card exchange! Perfect! This will get me out of my comfort zone and interact with different people around the world (Yes! I’ll be sending cards to the UK!).
Coincidentally, I’ve already given a lot of thought about love. What is it, how does one portray it, how is it possible to exude love after building up defenses? It doesn’t seem easy, but I wanted to try to understand and be more loving.
I’ve always thought myself to be a bit difficult and hardened towards other people. This February, for the card exchange, it would be great to challenge myself to show love to people I don’t quite know.
Hopefully, you know by now that I love me some RM. I’m still recovering from Mono. and one of his singles Forever Rain (I listen to it every day y’all). In it he says:
“I wish it rains all day
Cuz then people wouldn’t stare at me, yeah
Cuz the umbrella would cover the sad face
Cuz in the rain people are busy minding themselves.”
We individually hide our feelings from each other as if we’re scared to be honest, afraid of ridicule (hence the scary faces in the MV and RM’s desire to mask his emotions in the rain). This is silly because we all have the same feelings and we all share similar experiences.
When this album came out, so many people appreciated RM’s honesty. Plenty of people experience depression, dissatisfaction with life, and a myriad of other emotions within the album. Why can’t we show these feelings outwardly in hopes to connect with other people who need help too? And why can’t those people be honest and reach back? It’s like we’re afraid of each other. We shouldn’t be.
Soooooo, I hate when people ask me how are you cause I’m obliged to say “I’m good and you?” Well, I’m not good! And if I told you, would you listen? Or would you feel inconvenienced? Did you even care to know in the first place or are you just being cordial? It sucks! I should just start saying, “I’m terrible! I have uncoerced mood-sings, I don’t want to be here and I’m unhappy with my life!” Shake things up a bit! Lol!✧(σ๑˃̶̀ꇴ˂̶́)σ
This is why I’m challenging myself. Love is the most powerful force in life. It shouldn’t be complicated or withheld from someone that needs it. So my cards all have love in it, within the body of the message, stickers, and salutations. I’ve been saying I love you more to family and friends, but now I’ll make a bigger effort (Since it’s February/Valentine’s Month, I can get away with it without being creepy lol!).
Hopefully, these cards will hit the spot and I’ll learn something from this challenge. In the very least, I want to be able to say the word “love,” more often. Every little step towards love, loving others and myself, will be excellent progress. I’ll give an update when the event is over with some additional remarks.
I love you!
PS: Cause I love Forever Rain soooooo much, I’ve added some analyses for your viewing pleasure ❤