*in the key of out-of-touch adult* I remember when bar piercings were aaaaaall the rage! My friend had gotten one and damnit, I wanted it too. The bar earring crossed the upper portion of her ear at an angle, one cartilage piercing to another, and it looked rebellious. Not sure if my friend knew I wanted cartilage piercings, but she definitely wouldn’t have told me to wait over ten years!
But, that’s what I do. I have no concept of the length of time that has passed and I ruminate on the endless possible outcomes of a decision I have yet to make. There were so many worries that I dragged my feet.
“This isn’t appropriate for a business environment. Who will take me seriously?”
“I’ll look silly when I’m old.”
“Last thing I need is to be perceived as immature. I’m a grown ass adult!”
“With my luck, I’ll finally get a keloid.”
“I gotta wait a year before changing the earring?! But, but accessories!”
What I needed was spontaneity. So when my niece happened to ask me to take her for her first tattoo, I got the chance to stop my decade of mulling it over!
What’s funny is I didn’t act nervous or indecisive. I walked right over to the piercer’s studio without a care. This was not at all ten years in the making! *dismissive laughter.* “One here, one here and one here.” is what I told him and emerged, after GREAT EXCRUCIATING PAIN, with one helix and two matching earlobe piercings. Ridiculous lol.
Notice that I’m so into KPOP that I wanted a cartilage piercing AND enough ear lobe earrings to feel like an idol. Plus! I can switch out the cartilage stud with a hoop to feel closer to Jimin. o(≧∇≦)o #kpoptrash
Am I worried? I’m actually quite excited! I finally took a chance and bet on myself. During all the wasted time, I became extremely comfortable avoiding as many fears as possible that’s why I’m in a dead-end job or so my 19-year-old niece tells me. All of my visions and inspirations were easily overwhelmed by unnecessary anxiety and defeatism. Now I have to believe in myself AND my choice.
There’s more to life than what my eyes can narrowly see. Most likely I missed out on plenty of rewards. Although these piercings are a small step, perhaps by gambling with the fate of my precious left-ear, I’ve learned that…it’s not so bad. I’m having fun and enjoying the endless possible outcomes cause I still got a year before this bitch is healed. I’ll just adapt if necessary and keep it moving.
So was it worth it? Absolutely. I’m wearing what I want to work WITH a bomb ass helix piercing. It was finally time well spent!
Photo Credit: Davepiercer (instagram)