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Confessions of a BTS Addict

As soon as I said I couldn’t afford it, I found myself in queue for BTS’ Love Yourself: Speak Yourself Tour tickets *shame*

And what the hell made me jump on Ticketmaster as if I didn’t JUST proclaim I couldn’t afford it!?

Love.

It was love.

Now my bank account has belly flopped, but I get to see The Boys in a stadium! *cue massive light ocean!* 《《o(≧◇≦)o》》

 

~ “Cheats” for Tomorrow’s Rumored Sale! ~

 

  1. Get into pre-queue!
  2. Select ticket prices first, then seats.
  3. Be quick (or fans will steal from under you).

The process was much better than for Love Yourself Tour tickets.  The page set-up was smoother.  The site remembered my place in queue when I accidentally refreshed the page.  I could select the specific seats I wanted instead of waiting for P1-P7 ticket mayhem to flash across my screen.  Best of all, it took me 2 hours to see tickets for Metlife and there was still higher level seating available.  The site just needs a way back to the seating chart from check-out; otherwise, there’s no way backwards.

No worries! All stadium tour stops are hinting at a second sale tomorrow!

Keep trying and stay fighting! (๑•̀ㅂ•́)و

 

 

Experience: #LoveYourselfInChicago

Before BTS in Chicago, I didn’t believe in post-concert depression.  Clearly, I was wrong.

BE FOREWARNED!

If you thought some of my other posts were long, you’re in for a treat! This one is longer!

 

~ 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜 ~

 

I spent four, long, arduously stressful months trying to get tickets to see BTS in New York or Chicago.  My friend and I combined devices to become a tiny force to be reckoned with, only to lose out on tickets for New York AND Chicago!

October was coming around the corner.  I had set-up dozens of Facebook and Twitter notifications for various BTS groups and one extra special gem, BTSTicketBOT.  Eventually, I had to make a decision on one location instead of being bombarded by notifications for two, so I picked Chicago.  I started to search for BTSxChicago hashtags and various keywords in search engines until I hit the jackpot! I found LoveYourselfxChicago, a BTS fanbase in the Chicago-area that organizes fan events and charity drives.

DO NOT buy from unreliable websites such as Craig’s List.  You WILL be scammed.  No matter how tempting and how desperate you may have become during your search, DON’T DO IT! There will be tickets, just keep reading! (•̀ᴗ•́)و ̑̑

LoveYourselfxChicago was selling tickets for a suite ($250 each), at the tip-tip-tippy top of the arena with a full meal plan and semi-private bathrooms.  I told them, “I do.”

K, I was at peak gambling mode at this point before I had to look at the time and stop taking chances.  Originally, I told them NO! I wanna see sweat dripping from Namjoon’s forehead from P1 seating! Then I crumpled my wish on a piece of paper (seriously, I wrote exactly what I wanted multiple times on several slips of paper), before I meekly asked to be put on a waitlist.  (*≧▽≦)ノシ))

Luckily, we had already booked an Airbnb and THE cheapest transportation through Megabus ($13 total with tax, for two tickets)…..but you ought to know I’m never on time, so we missed it and had to drive (LOL!).

Yoooooo, my friend and I wanted to enjoy those charter seats and avoid the erratic Chicago traffic so bad that I called my niece to see if I got ahead of the bus, would she keep my car at her college over the weekend, just gas it up.  We didn’t make it.  Which…worked out for us later…We stocked up on flavored soju at Joong Boo Market and got some awesome food at San Soo Gab San Korean BBQ *cackles*

Finally! We’re in Chicago! We go to Mecca and it’s a barricaded parking lot across from United Center with people dancing it out to BTS music blaring from BigHit speakers.  Choreo, cheers, screaming over biases, everyone was just having so much fun! Hanging out in a parking lot was a bit of a let-down considering how much money we ARMY deliberately and emotionally give BigHit, but at least the Love Yourself banners and images were displayed everywhere.  It was nice seeing the block decked out for BTS:

 

 

Right at the entrance of the barricade was the lightstick help desk, so I made a beeline!

HERE’S THE ULTIMATE V3 LIGHTSTICK FIX!…put a little cushion on the bottom of the battery pack to boost it up.  There’s an issue with the battery not completing the circuit, so the light doesn’t come on.  The cushion eliminates that issue.  o(≧∇≦o)

There was NO line for merch.  Everyone came and went.  (I meeeaaaan, if you’re going to line up all night for first dibs, you shouldn’t have to wait all day right?).  Luckily, I had found a GO and we got merch without having to wait in line! We were able to meander over to the merch table after getting my lightstick fixed and lazily check off the order ballet whatever we wanted.  Merch availability was posted on banners.  The more popular items like the photo book, slogan, certain t-shirt sizes, premium photos, etc., were sold out, but there was a ton of lightsticks, mini lightstick rings, and photo cards, left over.

Legit. We were in and out in minutes.  The longest part was making up my mind.  I even purchased more PCs after a change of heart while still staring at the cashier (I needed at least two packs!).

Next, we were on the prowl…to sell fanmerch! This was our first time.  We had created some Love Yourself themed pocket mirrors and were hoping to recoup some of the concert costs.  We almost got bounced by BigHit Staff (LOL!).  This lady came over to us like, “this is your final warning.” My friend said to her, you mean our first?! Cause, we ain’t never seen this chick or spoke to her before.  She pursed her lips a bit cause she knew that was dumb to say.  Meanwhile, fansites and savvier fan merchants were stealthily dodging BigHit Staff and United Center Security, just making a KILLING!

I friggin love fan merch so much.  I buy from fans all the time online and it’s my favorite thing to do at a kpop concert. Fan merch can be beautiful and are usually the better things the band’s company doesn’t sell.  Since they’re unique, you’ll never find it anywhere else and if they’re discontinued, it’s once in a lifetime, so it was a bit disappointing that BigHit had the place on lockdown.  It was greedy, especially with how they’re pummeling us fans with various collaborations and activities (Mattel dolls, Funko Pop Vinyls, UNO cards, BTS World, The Notes Books, etc.)  Support your fandom family!

Honestly, there’s not much more to do and since I didn’t enter the photo booth lottery, I don’t have more to describe. I realized the set-up is more of a dip-in and dip-out scenario.  Buy merch, see some sights, get pictures, then bounce (although, I’ve seen posts from fans in Asian countries where it’s a whole damn festival, but whatever America.  Capitalism sucks.).  We tried to sell more merch while fans were lining up at the entrances, then made our long walk back to the bus stop (I was not driving or paying for parking) and turned in for the night.

The lines into the United Center were extraordinary…because people wouldn’t listen.  Granted, everyone had to form a line prior to the doors opening, but eventually, security was telling people to exit the lines and enter through any of the other doors.  One whole section, with multiple entrances, had no lines, but fans were so damn scared to lose their place that they didn’t trust to leave their spot.  Most had reserved seats!  Swear, fans must have PTSD from how they have to fight for everything.  Security was checking bags and scanning people through the metal detectors very quickly, so there was no need for the uncertainty.  ¯\_(⌣̯̀⌣́)_/¯

The next day was CONCERT DAAAAAAAY! I’m gonna skip a bunch of stuff because it’s redundant and I pretty much talked about security.  How. Ever.  We did sell more fan merch (Thanks!), made mutuals, spoke to some great people, and even met Dee Skelliton.  Eventually, it was time to check our bags and ride that evasive elevator to the sky-I mean, our suite.

Kudos to the people that handed out free stuff.  I got a couple of PCs and lyrics to Seesaw in support of Yoongi’s solo stage.

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Word of caution.  Don’t overexert yourself.  We brought water, snacks, a hand fan, extra batteries, charger, and other necessities.  I thought we were ready, but that walking! Ugh! We must’ve walked the equivalent of 10 miles from the bus stop to United, around United several times, to Subway for grub, back to United.  We were tired AF, so when we got to the suite, we wanted to chill, but there were 20 other people already there and not enough seating with a view (suites can accommodate 20 people, but only have 10 stadium seats.  There were barstools and couches, but the TVs were not broadcasting the show).

But we had fooooooood, baby!  *raps* I’m a big girl, that likes big things, and I keep a plate, for my big dreams.  There was hotdogs, ciabatta sandwiches, meatball subs, fruit, a bunch of other stuff and champ-angia.  I was so stressed from low sales and so many people around me, I really needed a breather so when the attendant cracked that bottle open, I didn’t shy.  I got lit.

Music videos were blasting.  Snapchat Geofilter was on! We had our fan project banners ready (Day 1 and 2)! Fans were singing along with their lightsticks on.  And then, THE LIGHTS DIMMED! Our lightsticks went crazy colorful! BTS popped up from beneath the stage and I blacked out.

Swear, I remember screaming my head off, trying my best at the Korean lyrics, crying a shitload, streaming to my closest BTS friends (shhhhh! (*≧艸≦)), hopping from our suite to the practically-empty-suite these beautiful, magnificent, gracious girls were willing to share, but otherwise, I don’t remember a lot.  Luckily, there’s film….but I’m too embarrassed by my screeching to post it (and it’s taking forever to upload!), so enjoy these photos instead!  Mind you, we reached the last summit when we walked off the elevator.

 

We also got some amazing scenes:

If I were to describe the euphoric feeling I had seeing the boys in person, I’d never do it justice.  They were marvelous, engaging, funny and oh-so-sweet.  Hence why I’m pissed that I’m missing their stadium tour.  I told myself, I’m definitely seeing them next time…who knew they’d drop tickets this week?! This sounds weird, but I was extra upset that I won’t be able to go to one of the stadium stops and see the awesome light show.  Up to 80-90,000 lightsticks flickering and forming multicolored art in unison! Have you seen those videos? Wow. It would be such a breathtaking experience.

If you’re looking to get BTS Tickets, check out my other post.  The title is a little misleading, but my Plan B for getting tickets after they’re sold out is there.

If you’re banking on getting tickets direct from Ticketmaster…it’s all luck.  You can do everything correctly according to fans:

  1. Have multiple devices
  2. Recruit friends with multiple devices
  3. Have the fastest internet service
  4. Have multiple browsers and tabs open
  5. Not refresh the page
  6. For certain platforms, refresh the page
  7. Log-in hours in advance and wait to be placed in the queue

Even Ticketmaster provided a preparation guide.

You can do all that and some (I did) and still not score a single ticket.  Remember, based on the stage set-up, only 2/3s of the stadium’s seating will be sold, part of the tickets are already reserved for BigHit, Ticketmaster or another broker, and season ticket holders.  That means even fewer tickets will be available! Not only are you competing with each other but also scalpers with dedicated servers to snatch up tickets.

I’m not trying to scare anyone, just stating facts.  If Plan A doesn’t work, don’t give up hope! Plan B may be your best option. Just keep storing your coins and be flexible.  A couple of things on my previous post in the bonus section actually happened:

  • Ticketmaster released additional tickets, unannounced, a week or two before the Chicago concert date.
  • United Center sold extra tickets both nights of the show
  • People were posting last-minute ticket sales in various groups

It pays to keep checking the website, staying tuned to social media and just waiting in the box office line at the venue.

Another thing I learned while talking to various fans at United Center and also from social media posts, is that sometimes people with extra unsold tickets may just give them away! *screams*

If you choose to purchase resale tickets, do it through StubHub or Vividseats.  Both sites guarantee similar tickets if the ones purchased are fake or will refund your money.  Last year, StubHub realized how popular BTS is and created a dedicated customer service hotline (too many people were calling lol!).  Also, if you call into Vividseats, they might give a discount (the rep offered me 15%).  Lastly, if purchasing resale tickets from another fan, ask for proof and have someone else look at the proof with you.  You can even ask in groups if other people know of the account selling the tickets.

 

~ My Last Humble Opinion ~

 

Last year, Love Yourself tour tickets for Metlife Stadium had a decent resale price on StubHub because many ARMY had already purchased tickets: extremely overpriced resale tickets and multiple face value tickets in hopes for the right seats.  I’ve seen many ARMY say they might sit this tour out because they’re broke like me, they’re saving for other kpop concerts, or they’re unsure how different the Speak Yourself concert will be from Love Yourself stages.  That ups the chances for tickets and, if the demand isn’t as high as last time, the resale prices will go down about two or three days from the concert date and they’ll become lower the day of.  Hell, Ontario wasn’t a popular destination and those tickets were nuts.

Just don’t buy tickets because you can and then hold them in hopes of better tickets.  There will be more chances.  There were lots of tickets that were unclaimed.  Some of the top tier levels. Were. Not. Full.

So anything is possible! Believe it and stay fighting!


 

There you have it: This behemoth posting that tired me out enough over the weeks that I had to just publish the sucker and get it over with! LOL! Hopefully, this is useful.  I wanted to get it out sooner than the day Speak Yourself tickets go on sale.  I also forgot about DPR! Oh well. (੭ ˃̣̣̥ ω˂̣̣̥)੭

Randomness: Chris Pine Owns a Dunkin Donuts

Last night, I dreamt Chris Pine worked not only for my employer and left to start his own business, but that his new business was running a Dunkin Donuts! He met his girlfriend, a conspiracy theorist with a heavy Slovenian accent, after a tryst on company grounds.  (The employee rumor mill said it was hot and scandalous!)  She followed Chris to also start her own Dunkin Donuts.

Mind you, my dream really made it seem Chris Pine and his girlfriend felt they were too good for my employer and stormed off to do BIG THINGS:…….Dunkin Donuts. Hehehehe! Chris Pine became the manager in the white button-down that you ask for when the cashier screwed up your order and won’t fix it. (*≧▽≦)ノシ))

The line into the Dunkin Donuts was out the door.  They were serving Krispy Kremes (LOL!).  All hands were on deck…literally, they were manhandling donuts and passing them out on napkins like an assembly line.  I gladly ate my purple yam donut after watching Chris Pine glaze it with his bare hands under the spout of a glaze machine.

It looked like a pop machine, but instead, sugary donut glaze came out.  Like, what’s wrong with dipping the donuts? Watch, the glaze machine is gonna break and they won’t know what to do.  “Sorry, no glazed or frosted donuts.  The glaze machine broke.” (ᗒᗜᗕ)՛̵̖

I was excited to see Chris; were we on good terms, friends even? And. He. Was. Aaaaaa- HAM! He was joking with everybody, even called for everyone’s attention to do a performance (Not managing. At. All.).  He could’ve been singing (stream Spidey-Bells!).  I don’t remember, but everyone loved him.  Too bad they’re not going to stay open after the health code violations roll in (LOL!).

Afterward, I called Chris Pine’s girlfriend’s Dunkin Donuts (She has no name ya’ll), prolly cause that purple yam donut was bomb, and I got a voicemail greeting detailing a conspiracy as to why she was fired from her previous employer and who to beware of, all in a heavy Slovenian accent.  It was ENDLESS! So I hung up.

The End.


 

BTW, I love Chris Pine.  He’s too hot not to get some.  He can open all the Dunkin Donuts he wants and I’ll be there.  Gawd, I effin love their dark roast coffee *cries*  It’s just comical I dreamt an A-list actor figured his best opportunity was opening a Dunkin Donuts. LOL!

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BTS…Why You Do Me Like Dis?

Dudes, random and straight-up, why BTS tryna ruin my wallet with a spontaneous stadium tour?!

Sure, we can say they gave us a heads up, with “Oooo, I wish we could do a stadium tour,” but you were JUST here in October! (An experience I HAVE to share with you guys!) Their current tour ain’t even finished. I would’ve thought they’d return during the fall at the most outrageously earliest timetable.

When will they rest? Will they be okay? Will they be healthy by the end? Will Suga get enough sleep?! Is RM gonna do his UN speech?! How many new stages will there be?! WHAT EPIC LOOKS WILL THEY KILL US WITH?! AHDAHDFHAHFAHDFSA! (ू˃̣̣̣̣̣̣o˂̣̣̣̣̣̣ ू)⁼³₌₃

Also, they threw this on me (YES! MEEEEEE!) after announcing a Mattel and Funko Pop collaboration (UNO cards?! Effin really?!…I’m getting them tho ✧(σ๑˃̶̀ꇴ˂̶́)σ), The Notes books, I’m sure I’m forgetting more that I’m already paying for! OH! What about new BT21 Releases! And BTS World?! They still have to release new albums this spring. How much do you wanna bet they’ll drop new merch that says Speak Yourself? If they drop a new lightstick, we fightin!

UGH! I’m so broke…I still love them tho…with all my heart. *whimpers in defeat* RM…call me! 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜

Anyway, here’s links for y’all that can actually make it *kicks rocks*

Transformation: Who Am I?

I’ve been reflecting upon myself after the release of MONO. by RM (Kim Namjoon of BTS).  Up to the release, people had tweeted what the album could be about and how it relates to his mixtape titled RM, especially its monochromatic theme and how RM struggled to live between the labels of artist and idol.  He has a life curve that mirrors his struggle where he asks “who am I?” and eventually reaches “Amor Fati.”

Amor Fati is the encompassing of all events that make a person who they are and accepting that fate to the point of contentment.  It’s more Nietzsche (his favorite) coming through modern philosopher Namjoon!  Watching RM develop and chart his own path of personal growth is inspiring, so much so that I’ve thought to myself, how would I answer the same question if asked, “Who am I?”

I can’t. (⌣_⌣”)

I’ve lived a long time, battled depression and anxiety, but what do I have to show for it? If I were to define myself, I should at least be able to say, without a doubt, what motivates me.  What am I passionate about? What attempts ended in failure?

As luck would have it, I was looking for something in the attic and came across some very old childhood “artifacts” (thanks Mom for keeping them! Lol!).  They’re hilarious:

And also impressive:

The DRAAAAAMAAA! LOL! (ᗒᗜᗕ)՛̵̖

All in all, the efforts seemed passionate and heartfelt – something I taught myself to leave behind.  (I was too romantic! It hurt to be so sincere!) I’m now rethinking my inner-struggle.  Maybe I wasn’t too far off in my post about living with two “personalities” that are conflicting with each other.  Could I possibly be reverting to some of the optimistic, romantic qualities I had as a child?

Maybe I was avoiding my fate? Maybe it’s time to embrace it? Nevertheless, I’ll ponder what descriptions suit me until I can directly answer “who am I?”

I’m very thankful for RM.  I don’t think I’ve had a muse as intense and relatable.  Sure, I’ve had comforts, but nothing that could speak to my heart and assure me I’m not the only one; That everything’s okay.

I’m also grateful that I’m mature enough, and have lived long enough to appreciate MONO’s message.  It’s a very good time to be alive.

Transformation: Four Year Plan

During the hardest moments of my depression, my co-worker was talking about getting her master’s degree.  Our CHRO was encouraging her and they’d openly talk about which colleges to attend.  I liked that.  It gave me hope and I wanted to be a part of it.  In my head, pursuing a Master’s would help my depression, and at the very least, keep me so busy I’d lose track of it.

*Gets on her soapbox* Honestly.  Our education system sucks.  Who said the best way to learn is to study an unholy amount of reading from a dry, over-worded textbook from a bunch of PhDs that have lost contact with reality and to complete the accumulative of 200 pages worth of writing and group projects (just for one class!), none of which reflect actual writing and team assignments in the workplace.  Adult learning is about bite-sized information that can be reinforced with experiences and on-the-job use.  If we can only remember 10% of what we’re taught, why are they cramming all this excess into our heads?! *kicks her soapbox away*

So! On July 23, 2016, I wrote a plan that by the time I’m 35, I’ll have my Master’s, be SHRM–CP and IPMA-HR certified, conversational in Japanese, Korean and Spanish, and live a healthier life.

Now for the big reveal!

As of October 7, 2018, I have completed my Master of Science in Human Resources Development and I am SHRM-CP and IPMA-HR certified.  I know most of the Korean alphabet and Japanese Hiragana and Katakana, including some sentence structure.  Spanish…well…um…we’ll get to it eventually lol!

It’s a damn shame.  My mother has been living in Mexico for years and I don’t even try to speak Spanish while there.  In fact, I took over five years of Spanish only not to use it and to forget it all.  But! One of my Spanish teachers said I have great pronunciation! *finger hearts, pew pew!*

It’s time to finish the rest of my plan!  This is a very exciting moment because I’ve been dying to get back to language learning *whispers* and healthy living…I guess, but more so language learning! How will I do it? I think I’ll start where I left off!

Each week I’ll complete a chapter in the Genki I textbook and workbook, starting from chapter 3, and I’ll include writing practice with Japanese Hiragana & Katakana for Beginners workbook (Tuttle).  Since I’ve done so well memorizing the Korean alphabet, I’ll start level 1 of the Talk to Me In Korean Workbook series and return to the Simple Korean workbook for writing and listening practice.

I can mold Spanish language learning around my other studies with apps such as Memrise, Duolingo, and Lingodeer until I find a workbook that I like.  I can take spare time, such as during my lunch break, to complete short levels in either of the apps.

This plan may sound rigorous, but it’s really easy.  My biggest hurdle is my memory, so the last thing I want to do is overload myself.  Since this plan is my own, I can change it however I need to fit my learning style.  If I have to take a break, or I have to take more time on a certain chapter, I will.  Notice, I do not have a structured schedule with calendar dates and time periods.  I’m trying to stay as flexible as possible.

I can’t end this entry without talking about how I’ll tackle healthy living…though I really want to *sarcasm* LOL!

*Whines* Healthy living is haaaaard.  I want to eat all the gummies, popcorn with extra butter, tacos, pizza, and bacon.  Hell, I’m drinking peach soju as I write this.  I was planning to buy hard cider next pay! LOL!

I had lost 11 pounds doing a modified One Punch Man workout and intermittent fasting, then I gained it all back during the holidays last year! Since this plan worked for me, I owe it to myself to give it another shot.  It really curbed my cravings and appetite, and helped with digestion and bloating.  I did have a boast of energy, but I’m Pisces.  I’ll always find time for a nap.

What I’ll do is cut out fast food and most sweets (touch my gummies and I will die).  I’ll have a breakfast shake in the morning, eat lunches prepared at home, and not eat anything after 5 PM.  Intermittent fasting requires me to only eat within an 8-hour window, some windows are shorter, but the remaining 16 hours must be for fasting.  Also, lots and lots and lots of water.

I primarily drink water.  There I said it! I freakin love it.  A girl loves her hard cider and flavored soju, but I’m usually chugging water.  I cut pop years ago, before intermittent fasting, because it would make me feel sick.  Strangely enough, the change in my diet clicked and I’ve never looked back.  This gives me hope that I’ll find the same with better eating habits and exercise.

What also helped to burn fat was using 30 minutes to exercise:  the modified One Punch Man workout.  Every day, I’ll do push-ups, crunches, leg lifts and squats, then increase the repetitions by 5 each week.  So, at first I started at 25 reps, but by the next week, I was doing 30 reps and so on.  Eventually, I got to 80 reps before I went eff it in-front of all the holiday foods.  It’s my desire that I get to the hundreds so I can have toned arms, stomach, thighs and bum!

Wish me luck! This will be a lonely journey as no one that I know, I MEAN NO ONE, is eating healthily.  I work in human resources so there’s always food.  I’m about to be knee deep in Halloween candy and the holidays are around the corner.  Please wish for me to keep focus because I only have about 1.5 years left to accomplish my plan.  I need to be able to look back and say, I did that, in four years!