Unboxening: BTS Werewolf Game

Here’s something quick since writing about SYxChicago is tripping me up (sorry!).

I ordered the BTS Werewolf Game and it recently came in.  I’m so excited to share it!

Gehenna is the artist, and they are amazing.  If you do not follow them on Twitter, do it NYAO!  If you’re active on ARMY Twitter then you’ve seen their Greek Gods artwork trending.  I’ve even seen it reposted to groups on Facebook!

Of course, I can’t manage my money, so I ordered the premium card set that comes in a faux wood panel box with a clamp, instructional booklet, and a pin.  The items fit nicely into the box…just not the velvet? At some point, the box rejected it LOL!

Basically, this game is remodeled mafia game that we Kpoppies have seen played many times (How to play). The attention to detail in the artwork on each card is just phenomenal.  Aaaaaall of them are gorgeous and cut thick, great for handling.  Because this is the premium set, the cards have silver foil detail on the front and back. 

There are character cards for werewolves and villagers and also event cards.

THE ARTISTRY! The characters fit the BTS members so well (๑◕︵◕๑).

I hope to get a game going ONE DAY! I only have so many ARMY friends near me, but maybe I’ll finally go to a concert for a whole weekend and gather 7 of us together for a small round XD!

Psst…If these sexy mens drawings made you parched and you need a fanfic to quench your thirst, try Saltation.  It’s Yoonmin ABO with slight violence, but it’s intense, full of pining and oh so smutty.  I can’t recommend it enough!


Ain’t No Mountain High Enough…

*Cue Diana Ross – Ain’t No Mountain High Enough*

Hey Guys! I’ve been MIA dealing with health issues, but nothing can keep me away from seeing BTS in Chicagoooooo! (๑•̀ㅂ•́)و✧

I’m super-duper excited about seeing the Speak Yourself Tour and I want to chronicle my experience better than my prior post.

My friend and I are gonna crash and dash! One day to soak everything in and then we’ll come home in time for GOT and subsequent recovery cause…this chick ain’t doing well, hehe.  (;・∀・)

So! My hopes for this trip is to hit up:

AND! I hope I’ll have so many wonderful experiences and photos to share.

Follow me on Twitter if you want to see live updates! O(≧∇≦)O


Randomness: Persona Comeback Trailer

Lord Jesus, help me. *throws hands in the air*

I haven’t been feeling the best but I came back to say a few words ’bout President Kim Namjoon’s comeback trailer, Persona.

It’s dope as fuck.

Everything about it screams him embracing pieces of himself so that he no longer has to put up a front.  The song is a remix of Intro: Skool Luv Affair, Genius from RMixtape and prolly more that I’m not aware of, so it’s dripping in hip-hop (it ain’t dead y’all! (๑•̀ㅂ•́)و).  He shows who he is as himself, an idol and a leader, and in true President Kim Namjoon fashion, shows nothing gets passed him! (i.e. “But Namjoon,” and visual nods to ARMY affectionately calling him President by also nodding to the UN speech he gave! JFC!).

I also love how honest he is.  He admits he didn’t understand what message he should put forth as an artist when he was younger, so he imitated what he thought was right.  He admits that he’s always changing and he has his faults.  But, this life, this pursuit of “Who am I?” doesn’t have a clear answer.  There’s beauty in striving to become better people by constantly learning who we are, how to adapt.  There’s also hope and/or aspiration in his lyrics:

“So I’m askin’ once again yeah
Who the hell am I?
Tell me all your names baby
Do you wanna die?
Oh do you wanna go?
Do you wanna fly?
Where’s your soul? where’s your dream?
Do you think you’re alive?”

Genius Lyrics

Tell me all your names, baby?! I’ve been dying for him to drop another “baby,” my way but he also threw in a reference to his UN speech! *cries* He’s killing me! ˚‧º·(˚ ˃̣̣̥᷄⌓˂̣̣̥᷅ )‧º·˚

And can we get an AMEN for all the Carl Jung thrown about the video backgrounds, visuals, and lyrics?!  We stan some smart ass Kings! They feeding us everything PLUS knowledge. *claps*

The consistency in his message of love and knowing who you are, from Love Yourself lyrics to concert ments, is amazing.  I effing love it and him.

Ya’ll. I said it before and I’ll say it again,  I would’ve loved this encouragement as a kid but I still love that I can appreciate the depth more as an adult.

President Kim Namjoon is everything.

End rant.


Confessions of a BTS Addict

As soon as I said I couldn’t afford it, I found myself in queue for BTS’ Love Yourself: Speak Yourself Tour tickets *shame*

And what the hell made me jump on Ticketmaster as if I didn’t JUST proclaim I couldn’t afford it!?


It was love.

Now my bank account has belly flopped, but I get to see The Boys in a stadium! *cue massive light ocean!* 《《o(≧◇≦)o》》


~ “Cheats” for Tomorrow’s Rumored Sale! ~


  1. Get into pre-queue!
  2. Select ticket prices first, then seats.
  3. Be quick (or fans will steal from under you).

The process was much better than for Love Yourself Tour tickets.  The page set-up was smoother.  The site remembered my place in queue when I accidentally refreshed the page.  I could select the specific seats I wanted instead of waiting for P1-P7 ticket mayhem to flash across my screen.  Best of all, it took me 2 hours to see tickets for Metlife and there was still higher level seating available.  The site just needs a way back to the seating chart from check-out; otherwise, there’s no way backwards.

No worries! All stadium tour stops are hinting at a second sale tomorrow!

Keep trying and stay fighting! (๑•̀ㅂ•́)و



Experience: #LoveYourselfInChicago

Before BTS in Chicago, I didn’t believe in post-concert depression.  Clearly, I was wrong.


If you thought some of my other posts were long, you’re in for a treat! This one is longer!


~ 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜 ~


I spent four, long, arduously stressful months trying to get tickets to see BTS in New York or Chicago.  My friend and I combined devices to become a tiny force to be reckoned with, only to lose out on tickets for New York AND Chicago!

October was coming around the corner.  I had set-up dozens of Facebook and Twitter notifications for various BTS groups and one extra special gem, BTSTicketBOT.  Eventually, I had to make a decision on one location instead of being bombarded by notifications for two, so I picked Chicago.  I started to search for BTSxChicago hashtags and various keywords in search engines until I hit the jackpot! I found LoveYourselfxChicago, a BTS fanbase in the Chicago-area that organizes fan events and charity drives.

DO NOT buy from unreliable websites such as Craig’s List.  You WILL be scammed.  No matter how tempting and how desperate you may have become during your search, DON’T DO IT! There will be tickets, just keep reading! (•̀ᴗ•́)و ̑̑

LoveYourselfxChicago was selling tickets for a suite ($250 each), at the tip-tip-tippy top of the arena with a full meal plan and semi-private bathrooms.  I told them, “I do.”

K, I was at peak gambling mode at this point before I had to look at the time and stop taking chances.  Originally, I told them NO! I wanna see sweat dripping from Namjoon’s forehead from P1 seating! Then I crumpled my wish on a piece of paper (seriously, I wrote exactly what I wanted multiple times on several slips of paper), before I meekly asked to be put on a waitlist.  (*≧▽≦)ノシ))

Luckily, we had already booked an Airbnb and THE cheapest transportation through Megabus ($13 total with tax, for two tickets)…..but you ought to know I’m never on time, so we missed it and had to drive (LOL!).

Yoooooo, my friend and I wanted to enjoy those charter seats and avoid the erratic Chicago traffic so bad that I called my niece to see if I got ahead of the bus, would she keep my car at her college over the weekend, just gas it up.  We didn’t make it.  Which…worked out for us later…We stocked up on flavored soju at Joong Boo Market and got some awesome food at San Soo Gab San Korean BBQ *cackles*

Finally! We’re in Chicago! We go to Mecca and it’s a barricaded parking lot across from United Center with people dancing it out to BTS music blaring from BigHit speakers.  Choreo, cheers, screaming over biases, everyone was just having so much fun! Hanging out in a parking lot was a bit of a let-down considering how much money we ARMY deliberately and emotionally give BigHit, but at least the Love Yourself banners and images were displayed everywhere.  It was nice seeing the block decked out for BTS:



Right at the entrance of the barricade was the lightstick help desk, so I made a beeline!

HERE’S THE ULTIMATE V3 LIGHTSTICK FIX!…put a little cushion on the bottom of the battery pack to boost it up.  There’s an issue with the battery not completing the circuit, so the light doesn’t come on.  The cushion eliminates that issue.  o(≧∇≦o)

There was NO line for merch.  Everyone came and went.  (I meeeaaaan, if you’re going to line up all night for first dibs, you shouldn’t have to wait all day right?).  Luckily, I had found a GO and we got merch without having to wait in line! We were able to meander over to the merch table after getting my lightstick fixed and lazily check off the order ballet whatever we wanted.  Merch availability was posted on banners.  The more popular items like the photo book, slogan, certain t-shirt sizes, premium photos, etc., were sold out, but there was a ton of lightsticks, mini lightstick rings, and photo cards, left over.

Legit. We were in and out in minutes.  The longest part was making up my mind.  I even purchased more PCs after a change of heart while still staring at the cashier (I needed at least two packs!).

Next, we were on the prowl…to sell fanmerch! This was our first time.  We had created some Love Yourself themed pocket mirrors and were hoping to recoup some of the concert costs.  We almost got bounced by BigHit Staff (LOL!).  This lady came over to us like, “this is your final warning.” My friend said to her, you mean our first?! Cause, we ain’t never seen this chick or spoke to her before.  She pursed her lips a bit cause she knew that was dumb to say.  Meanwhile, fansites and savvier fan merchants were stealthily dodging BigHit Staff and United Center Security, just making a KILLING!

I friggin love fan merch so much.  I buy from fans all the time online and it’s my favorite thing to do at a kpop concert. Fan merch can be beautiful and are usually the better things the band’s company doesn’t sell.  Since they’re unique, you’ll never find it anywhere else and if they’re discontinued, it’s once in a lifetime, so it was a bit disappointing that BigHit had the place on lockdown.  It was greedy, especially with how they’re pummeling us fans with various collaborations and activities (Mattel dolls, Funko Pop Vinyls, UNO cards, BTS World, The Notes Books, etc.)  Support your fandom family!

Honestly, there’s not much more to do and since I didn’t enter the photo booth lottery, I don’t have more to describe. I realized the set-up is more of a dip-in and dip-out scenario.  Buy merch, see some sights, get pictures, then bounce (although, I’ve seen posts from fans in Asian countries where it’s a whole damn festival, but whatever America.  Capitalism sucks.).  We tried to sell more merch while fans were lining up at the entrances, then made our long walk back to the bus stop (I was not driving or paying for parking) and turned in for the night.

The lines into the United Center were extraordinary…because people wouldn’t listen.  Granted, everyone had to form a line prior to the doors opening, but eventually, security was telling people to exit the lines and enter through any of the other doors.  One whole section, with multiple entrances, had no lines, but fans were so damn scared to lose their place that they didn’t trust to leave their spot.  Most had reserved seats!  Swear, fans must have PTSD from how they have to fight for everything.  Security was checking bags and scanning people through the metal detectors very quickly, so there was no need for the uncertainty.  ¯\_(⌣̯̀⌣́)_/¯

The next day was CONCERT DAAAAAAAY! I’m gonna skip a bunch of stuff because it’s redundant and I pretty much talked about security.  How. Ever.  We did sell more fan merch (Thanks!), made mutuals, spoke to some great people, and even met Dee Skelliton.  Eventually, it was time to check our bags and ride that evasive elevator to the sky-I mean, our suite.

Kudos to the people that handed out free stuff.  I got a couple of PCs and lyrics to Seesaw in support of Yoongi’s solo stage.


Word of caution.  Don’t overexert yourself.  We brought water, snacks, a hand fan, extra batteries, charger, and other necessities.  I thought we were ready, but that walking! Ugh! We must’ve walked the equivalent of 10 miles from the bus stop to United, around United several times, to Subway for grub, back to United.  We were tired AF, so when we got to the suite, we wanted to chill, but there were 20 other people already there and not enough seating with a view (suites can accommodate 20 people, but only have 10 stadium seats.  There were barstools and couches, but the TVs were not broadcasting the show).

But we had fooooooood, baby!  *raps* I’m a big girl, that likes big things, and I keep a plate, for my big dreams.  There was hotdogs, ciabatta sandwiches, meatball subs, fruit, a bunch of other stuff and champ-angia.  I was so stressed from low sales and so many people around me, I really needed a breather so when the attendant cracked that bottle open, I didn’t shy.  I got lit.

Music videos were blasting.  Snapchat Geofilter was on! We had our fan project banners ready (Day 1 and 2)! Fans were singing along with their lightsticks on.  And then, THE LIGHTS DIMMED! Our lightsticks went crazy colorful! BTS popped up from beneath the stage and I blacked out.

Swear, I remember screaming my head off, trying my best at the Korean lyrics, crying a shitload, streaming to my closest BTS friends (shhhhh! (*≧艸≦)), hopping from our suite to the practically-empty-suite these beautiful, magnificent, gracious girls were willing to share, but otherwise, I don’t remember a lot.  Luckily, there’s film….but I’m too embarrassed by my screeching to post it (and it’s taking forever to upload!), so enjoy these photos instead!  Mind you, we reached the last summit when we walked off the elevator.


We also got some amazing scenes:

If I were to describe the euphoric feeling I had seeing the boys in person, I’d never do it justice.  They were marvelous, engaging, funny and oh-so-sweet.  Hence why I’m pissed that I’m missing their stadium tour.  I told myself, I’m definitely seeing them next time…who knew they’d drop tickets this week?! This sounds weird, but I was extra upset that I won’t be able to go to one of the stadium stops and see the awesome light show.  Up to 80-90,000 lightsticks flickering and forming multicolored art in unison! Have you seen those videos? Wow. It would be such a breathtaking experience.

If you’re looking to get BTS Tickets, check out my other post.  The title is a little misleading, but my Plan B for getting tickets after they’re sold out is there.

If you’re banking on getting tickets direct from Ticketmaster…it’s all luck.  You can do everything correctly according to fans:

  1. Have multiple devices
  2. Recruit friends with multiple devices
  3. Have the fastest internet service
  4. Have multiple browsers and tabs open
  5. Not refresh the page
  6. For certain platforms, refresh the page
  7. Log-in hours in advance and wait to be placed in the queue

Even Ticketmaster provided a preparation guide.

You can do all that and some (I did) and still not score a single ticket.  Remember, based on the stage set-up, only 2/3s of the stadium’s seating will be sold, part of the tickets are already reserved for BigHit, Ticketmaster or another broker, and season ticket holders.  That means even fewer tickets will be available! Not only are you competing with each other but also scalpers with dedicated servers to snatch up tickets.

I’m not trying to scare anyone, just stating facts.  If Plan A doesn’t work, don’t give up hope! Plan B may be your best option. Just keep storing your coins and be flexible.  A couple of things on my previous post in the bonus section actually happened:

  • Ticketmaster released additional tickets, unannounced, a week or two before the Chicago concert date.
  • United Center sold extra tickets both nights of the show
  • People were posting last-minute ticket sales in various groups

It pays to keep checking the website, staying tuned to social media and just waiting in the box office line at the venue.

Another thing I learned while talking to various fans at United Center and also from social media posts, is that sometimes people with extra unsold tickets may just give them away! *screams*

If you choose to purchase resale tickets, do it through StubHub or Vividseats.  Both sites guarantee similar tickets if the ones purchased are fake or will refund your money.  Last year, StubHub realized how popular BTS is and created a dedicated customer service hotline (too many people were calling lol!).  Also, if you call into Vividseats, they might give a discount (the rep offered me 15%).  Lastly, if purchasing resale tickets from another fan, ask for proof and have someone else look at the proof with you.  You can even ask in groups if other people know of the account selling the tickets.


~ My Last Humble Opinion ~


Last year, Love Yourself tour tickets for Metlife Stadium had a decent resale price on StubHub because many ARMY had already purchased tickets: extremely overpriced resale tickets and multiple face value tickets in hopes for the right seats.  I’ve seen many ARMY say they might sit this tour out because they’re broke like me, they’re saving for other kpop concerts, or they’re unsure how different the Speak Yourself concert will be from Love Yourself stages.  That ups the chances for tickets and, if the demand isn’t as high as last time, the resale prices will go down about two or three days from the concert date and they’ll become lower the day of.  Hell, Ontario wasn’t a popular destination and those tickets were nuts.

Just don’t buy tickets because you can and then hold them in hopes of better tickets.  There will be more chances.  There were lots of tickets that were unclaimed.  Some of the top tier levels. Were. Not. Full.

So anything is possible! Believe it and stay fighting!


There you have it: This behemoth posting that tired me out enough over the weeks that I had to just publish the sucker and get it over with! LOL! Hopefully, this is useful.  I wanted to get it out sooner than the day Speak Yourself tickets go on sale.  I also forgot about DPR! Oh well. (੭ ˃̣̣̥ ω˂̣̣̥)੭


BTS…Why You Do Me Like Dis?

Dudes, random and straight-up, why BTS tryna ruin my wallet with a spontaneous stadium tour?!

Sure, we can say they gave us a heads up, with “Oooo, I wish we could do a stadium tour,” but you were JUST here in October! (An experience I HAVE to share with you guys!) Their current tour ain’t even finished. I would’ve thought they’d return during the fall at the most outrageously earliest timetable.

When will they rest? Will they be okay? Will they be healthy by the end? Will Suga get enough sleep?! Is RM gonna do his UN speech?! How many new stages will there be?! WHAT EPIC LOOKS WILL THEY KILL US WITH?! AHDAHDFHAHFAHDFSA! (ू˃̣̣̣̣̣̣o˂̣̣̣̣̣̣ ू)⁼³₌₃

Also, they threw this on me (YES! MEEEEEE!) after announcing a Mattel and Funko Pop collaboration (UNO cards?! Effin really?!…I’m getting them tho ✧(σ๑˃̶̀ꇴ˂̶́)σ), The Notes books, I’m sure I’m forgetting more that I’m already paying for! OH! What about new BT21 Releases! And BTS World?! They still have to release new albums this spring. How much do you wanna bet they’ll drop new merch that says Speak Yourself? If they drop a new lightstick, we fightin!

UGH! I’m so broke…I still love them tho…with all my heart. *whimpers in defeat* RM…call me! 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜

Anyway, here’s links for y’all that can actually make it *kicks rocks*

Transformation: How Do You Love?

This February I want to challenge myself.

February is all about love.  Think Valentine’s Day:  Chocolates, cards, sweets, Kdramas and the like.

It just so happens (lucky me!) I’m a part of a Facebook group (a heavily BTS biased group, but embraces multifandom too) that does various events for camaraderie.  This time, they’re having a Valentine’s Day edition card exchange! Perfect! This will get me out of my comfort zone and interact with different people around the world (Yes! I’ll be sending cards to the UK!).

Coincidentally, I’ve already given a lot of thought about love.  What is it, how does one portray it, how is it possible to exude love after building up defenses?  It doesn’t seem easy, but I wanted to try to understand and be more loving.

I’ve always thought myself to be a bit difficult and hardened towards other people.  This February,  for the card exchange, it would be great to challenge myself to show love to people I don’t quite know.

Hopefully, you know by now that I love me some RM.  I’m still recovering from Mono. and one of his singles Forever Rain (I listen to it every day y’all).  In it he says:

“I wish it rains all day
Cuz then people wouldn’t stare at me, yeah

Cuz the umbrella would cover the sad face
Cuz in the rain people are busy minding themselves.”

Genius Lyrics

We individually hide our feelings from each other as if we’re scared to be honest, afraid of ridicule (hence the scary faces in the MV and RM’s desire to mask his emotions in the rain).  This is silly because we all have the same feelings and we all share similar experiences.

When this album came out, so many people appreciated RM’s honesty.  Plenty of people experience depression, dissatisfaction with life, and a myriad of other emotions within the album. Why can’t we show these feelings outwardly in hopes to connect with other people who need help too? And why can’t those people be honest and reach back? It’s like we’re afraid of each other.  We shouldn’t be.

Soooooo, I hate when people ask me how are you cause I’m obliged to say “I’m good and you?” Well, I’m not good! And if I told you, would you listen? Or would you feel inconvenienced? Did you even care to know in the first place or are you just being cordial? It sucks! I should just start saying, “I’m terrible! I have uncoerced mood-sings, I don’t want to be here and I’m unhappy with my life!” Shake things up a bit! Lol!✧(σ๑˃̶̀ꇴ˂̶́)σ

This is why I’m challenging myself. Love is the most powerful force in life.  It shouldn’t be complicated or withheld from someone that needs it. So my cards all have love in it, within the body of the message, stickers, and salutations. I’ve been saying I love you more to family and friends, but now I’ll make a bigger effort (Since it’s February/Valentine’s Month, I can get away with it without being creepy lol!).

Hopefully, these cards will hit the spot and I’ll learn something from this challenge.  In the very least, I want to be able to say the word “love,” more often.  Every little step towards love, loving others and myself, will be excellent progress. I’ll give an update when the event is over with some additional remarks.

I love you!

It’s over the top, but I had fun making it! The front of the card is to the right. The PC and heart confetti goes inside! Uwu! (ෆˊ͈ ु꒳ ूˋ͈ෆ)

PS:  Cause I love Forever Rain soooooo much, I’ve added some analyses for your viewing pleasure ❤